I was asleep already at 11pm. Thinking, later when you call, I will be more awake to talk to you. How wrong can I be. Was awoken by the sharp pain in my stomach AGAIN!!! Have a feeling of fear in me now. Headed to the toilet straight. When I returned, the 1st thing I did was to check my handphone. Did I miss any call or messages, in particular, yours??? I was so wrong... so naive as well...
Before I cry muself to sleep again, I had better let it off here. It helps. I think...
It has been 4 days... since you last called me. On Friday and Saturday, I called to wake you up. Chatted for a while and told me you will call me back again. But you never did. Not even a message, telling me you are busy. This is what you been doing previously, if you ever remembered what you have done then. Stopped myself from calling you yesterday. A test to see if you would call. You never did as well. Stayed up to wait. My phone was in total silence for the whole night. Messaged you and you say you are busy. FINE!
Your promise to me this morning??? To see if you can not work tomorrow night. As usual, called to wake you up. Messaged you late at night to ask you about it and you totally FORGOT???
I feel like I am such a fool now. Even the computer is making fun of me. Have to restart... cannot sign in to MSN... keep having those silly pop-ups...
Yes, you called me then. But is that your voice? It suddenly sound like a stranger's... Keep using busy as an excuse. Or maybe it is true. You can choose to totally not talk to me. It is fine. Is it really fine???
Is your work really that important to you now? I do not deny, yes it is the time where you are building up your career now. But can you please have the courtesy to at least inform the idiot who is waiting for your call that you are busy and ask her to go and rest 1st??? You are able to sleep your way out in the day. When she is at work. But what about her??? When you call her in the middle of the night, she have to be awake to entertain you. To bear with your hot and cold attitude towards her.
In just 3 words: YOU HAVE CHANGED!!! You may say that I am sensitive. Yes I am. If I am not, how else can I sensed that you changed???
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
6:29 AM